And not making excuses.
I suspect all this hits home with me because I'm such a creature of habit. I'm not a risk-taker. In fact, I'm probably one of the most conservative people I know. But I'm also bursting at my conventional seams, so desperately tired of being the responsible one, of letting my 9-to-5 shtick drain me dry. Life has more to offer than that. I wanna shake my tree a little. I'm just not sure how.
I want lively eyes.
For many years, my biggest excuse for not stepping out of my comfort zone has been my lack of a formal education beyond high school. I've always thought it marks me as stupid or indicates to others that I'm not ambitious. Yet I know I'm a hard worker. I know I give it my all. Still, I've let that niggling fear of being viewed as dumb or unqualified hinder me from pursuing more than what's been within arm's reach.
Einstein once said, "If you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."
I've been that fish for far too long.
I wonder at what age I stopped chasing down whys. How I managed to become this combination of complacent and resigned. I'll be damned if I'm going to let it be too late to change.
On my wall at work is a poster that says, "Do one thing every day that scares you." That's the person I want to be.
I'm searching for ways to step outside my comfort zone.
To let my eyes be lively.
I've heard curiosity can make them shine.
And a bit of risk can make them shine even more.
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