So, this new year that's starting carries more importance than many others have had for me. I'm taking this clean-slate business to heart and am determined to make better choices from here on out.
As for resolutions, I plan to continue with my "Do one thing every day that scares you." Except I'm altering it so it's just one thing every week. (The one-a-day business can make co-workers nervous.)
I will make an effort to remind myself that endings aren't necessarily bad. They can be a place from which to launch something new.
I will accept that my future is not permanently adhered to my past. I have to look at the mistakes I've made, evaluate why I made them, and use them as a guide for the choices I make in the future.
I will resolve to take baby steps, to set as many small goals as large, and to remember that even the tiniest step toward my goal still qualifies as progress.
I will resolve not to be overly hard on myself, to accept that there's no such thing as straight shots in my life. There will always be stairs and curves and slides that shoot me backward. But only for a little while.
This isn't just about fixing something that's broken. It's about starting over fresh, creating something better -- or at least something different -- from what I had before.
Starting over is scary, and while it might not be what I wanted, I was wrong when I told Caitlin that it isn't a cause for celebration. Maybe it is.
After all, even when I'm losing, I'm still in the game.
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