And these are my dreams, that I've never lived before.
Those random fragments tormented her until she went online to fill in the many parts of that song, performed by a group called Staind, that were missing. And when she did, she realized why the song had been stuck. She'd been meant to hear and think about every word.
Now that we're here, it's so far away, all the struggle we thought was in vain. All the mistakes one life contained -- they all finally start to go away.
Now that we're here, it's so far away, and I feel like I can face the day. And I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed, to be the person that I am today.
To have dreams and a life that it feels as if you haven't lived -- that's something I can understand. Once a person becomes a parent, it's almost second nature for them to live for their child or children.
And so often, before the parenting part has relaxed, there are others to care for or health issues to tend or responsibilities so leechlike that dreams get shoved to the side, where they shrink and diminish until they darn near disappear completely.
And when I looked at her in the mirror that morning, I was able to see that all those mistakes that her life -- my life -- contained, have finally started to go away. And like that song says, I realize all those years of struggle weren't really in vain because they've made me appreciative.
So appreciative that I can forgive and forget and move on and live.
And not be so sad anymore.
Reach Karin Fuller via email at karinful...@gmail.com.