Some time before he killed himself, Gonzales made a recording that was found in his laptop computer case. The message, apparently for Gonzales' wife, was inaudible in places because Gonzales was crying, according to the report.
"Cpl. Gonzales made statements [alluding] to his thoughts of suicide even to the point of referring to his funeral arrangements," the report states.
Brandy Beller, an office assistant with the State Police, talked to Gonzales twice the day he died.
"Cpl. Gonzales indicated their friendship was important to him and he thought of her as a 'sister.' Mrs. Beller stated that Cpl. Gonzales began speaking about being transferred back to South Charleston detachment and she inquired about that," the report states.
Gonzales lived with Stephanie Johnson, a former State Police dispatcher, and her husband from May through October in 2006. At that time, he told Johnson he was having marital problems, according to the report. He also told her that he was having suicidal thoughts, according to the report. Johnson told police she was aware that he was prescribed Zoloft for depression.
"Mrs. Johnson stated that Cpl. Gonzales was depressed a majority of the time, especially when his wife would bring their child to visit and then leave," according to the report.
Johnson told police that after Gonzales returned to living with his wife and child, she found a note from him.
"The content of the letter can be characterized as Cpl. Gonzales speaking to God regarding his suicidal thoughts at that time," according to the report.
A note was found in Gonzales' cruiser clipped to an aluminum clipboard. Inside were a gold wedding band with diamonds, a paper card with a poem titled "Forever" and $18.
The note, which was addressed to his wife, "indicated a degree of marital discord and Cpl. Gonzales' decision to commit the act of suicide. A portion of the letter mentioned the Holy Bible verse of Psalm 128," according to the report.
A birthday card was found inside a Bible in the computer case. The card was found on the page that contains Psalm 128, which had been circled. Psalm 128 is the one that Gonzales' father-in-law shared with him.
A portion of Psalm 128 reads, "What your hands provide you will enjoy, you will be happy and prosper ... May the Lord bless you from Zion, all the days of your life that you may share Jerusalem's joy and live to see your children's children."
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